EVENT: The Berserker Tournament

[zenderael_mods]

Who: Open
When: Friday, June 3rd to Friday, June 10th
Where: Pakerion
Before/After: --
Warnings: Violence.

[ This is a catch-all post for tourney shenanigans throughout the week. Use the subject line to indicate when a particular scene is taking place.

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Interview thread!

Friday & Saturday brackets.
Sunday & Monday brackets.
Tuesday & Wednesday brackets.
Additional brackets forthcoming. ]

Comments

[paladont]

[that's better, eileen >:( ]

[Not the crying part, he can tell she's upset and he feels bad about it despite everything. It douses his anger a bit and his explanation is a little more calm than it was going to be]

It's because players still act like they own us. Like we're not real people. Like we don't deserve the same respect they'd give other players. They treat us like objects and tools and still try to use us even though they can't control us anymore. They try to tell us what to do with our lives like they still have a say in it.

And they don't understand why when we get mad at them for it.

Pretending to be Sergeant Vallinar because you thought it was the only way to convince me is using her like a tool instead of treating her like a person. How would she feel, if she saw you doing that? Did you consider her, before you used her?

[feedtherain]

No.

[It takes Eileen a minute or two before she trusts herself to say more than that. She has to close her eyes and focus on not crying, because, damn it, Anais would be beyond disappointed in her if she just broke down in tears in front of Ravi right now.]

I admit it. I didn't, and she would be offended, but not for the reason you'd think.

[The reason being that Eileen is most likely the last person Anais ever would have thought of as her creator, but Eileen isn't ready to voice that yet. Besides, how would Ravi react if he found out she felt like she was inferior to Anais?]

For the record, though, Sergeant Savarna, I've never once thought of you or any of the others like you as anything other than a person.

[paladont]

[ravi you done fucked it up, look at how upset this girl is. but people are watching and given their positions it is not really appropriate to try to console her in any way, so he folds his arms and waits, nervously, through her silence as she pulls herself back together.]

[sigh at her reassurance. not at her, at himself. it's true, eileen has been pretty great, as players go, up until the bit where she used Anais to serve a purpose in this conversation.]

[he is just...going to completely change tracks here, let's get away from how players are terrible]

Vallinar said she was interested in speaking with her player.

I think you should write to her.

[feedtherain]

[Eileen does appreciate the change, though she's a little surprised that Anais was even interested in speaking to her. She honestly would have thought Anais wouldn't want anything to do with her. Still, Eileen shakes her head.]

I don't know. I'm probably not at all what she was expecting...

[paladont]

Most of you aren't.

[feedtherain]

...oh.

[Wait, does that mean he's spoken to Heimdall? No, probably not a good idea to ask about that.]

Are you disappointed?

[paladont]

[why do you think he dislikes players so much eileen]

Ah...in you? [or in his own player...? that's not really a conversation he wants to have, let's just assume it's her she's asking about]

I think maybe you should have said something sooner, and that you shouldn't have proven it the way you did, but I don't hate you, Wallace.

[feedtherain]

[She meant more in general, but that's good, too! And she does brighten up a bit when he says he doesn't hate her.]

I didn't like lying to you like that. I was going to tell you sooner, but then you got into that fight with the Spenta because he was a player. I was scared you'd hate me, too, so I'm glad I was wrong about that.

[paladont]

[whoops]

[barely constrained grimace at the reminder]

That was...different...

[IT WASN'T REALLY, IT WAS JUST STUPID AND HE REGRETS HOW STUPID IT WAS]

[feedtherain]

But it wasn't, not really. You don't like players, and you lashed out at one of us because of it. I understand why you did it, but for all I knew, you might have done the same thing to me.

[Admittedly, Ravi never struck her as being the sort of man that would hit a woman, but he also didn't strike her as the kind of person who would develop an alternate personality, either.

And is she overstepping boundaries again? She might be. She isn't sure. Nervously, she asks]

Was that too forward?

[paladont]

[She's right about that. Duncan, despite his talk of equality, has always been massively uncomfortable with the idea of men hitting women except in the context of a full-on brawl. Ravi would never throw a punch at a woman unsolicited.]

[it's also not comfortable to listen to her break that down for him, just let him disown it okay eileen]

A...bit.

Let's not discuss that here.

[or at all...]

[feedtherain]

[Eileen winces a bit. She really needs to stop overstepping boundaries. He's still her superior, after all.]

Sorry, sir. I won't bring it up again.

[paladont]

[Deep breath, slow exhale, he squares his shoulders and glances back toward Ezra and Evelyn. Back to Eileen.]

Is there anything else?

[feedtherain]

No, sir. That was it.

[If there was anything else she wanted to tell him, it sort of got lost when she thought he was mad at her.]

[paladont]

[Nod, motions for her to follow and leads her back toward the group]